View from the choir

I am a Catholic layperson and Secular Franciscan with a sense of humor. After years in the back pew watching, I have moved into the choir. It's nice to see faces instead of the backs of heads. But I still maintain God has a sense of humor - and that we are created in God's image.

Saturday, February 12, 2011

Secular Franciscan Profession

At last night's formation session, the formation director for my Secular Franciscan Order fraternity noted that we had just one more lesson to go - we will do it in March.

Then he said that final profession ceremony will likely be this summer, based on when the Franciscan priest who celebrates the profession Mass and service for our area is available (he has to come up from New York City). There are several candidates from the other local fraternity ready for profession, and then there's me. Indications are my fraternity leaders will approve my profession at this point.

I am ... excited, reflective.

I have been working for this day for several years now with the SFOs, and I have a life-long attachment to Franciscan beliefs and spirituality. I have been searching for so long for a spiritual path, a way to grow, and, to be honest, a check on my more lazy, selfish, sinful side.

But at the same time I feel so unworthy. I don't mean that in the "Hey, look at me acting all humble" way.

I really do feel that my prayer life is not as strong as it should be.

That I too often give in to the temptations that nip at my soul

That I'm prone to be non-Franciscan in the my words and thoughts.

And I fear that when people look at things I do and say they will remark in incredulity, "He's a Franciscan?"

Profession is not an end, of course. It doesn't mean one is a finished product. It's just one more step in the ongoing process of spiritual growth.

That won't end until I stand before God.

Pax et bonum.

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Blogger Barb, sfo said...

Just remember, even St. Francis recognized the need for ONGOING formation, because we are never, ever done. We're always in need of improvement in our spiritual lives. Congratulations on being so close to the next step!

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